Matthew 26 (NIV)
35But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.” And all the other disciples said the same….(not long after)….74Then he began to call down curses, and he swore to them, “I don’t know the man (Jesus)!”
I am my own worst enemy
Do you ever struggle to just do what God is asking you to do? Your heart desires to serve God?
You love God and you love others. It just seems like it never works out as planned.
Someone always gets in your way.
And you wish you could point your finger at someone but the reality is that the only way you could do that is to look in the mirror and point the finger.
You are the biggest obstacle for fulfilling what is God wants you to do.
- You feel the passion stir up inside of you and you’re about to take your first step and then you tell yourself that you’re not qualified. Instead, you don’t do anything because you’ve convinced yourself that somebody else would probably do a better job than you.
- You begin to remind yourself of how you failed last time and this time is not going to be any different.
- You sit there and think about all the worst case scenario’s until you’re so frustrated that you can’t even think anymore.
Join the club
You’re not alone.
Just look at Peter’s example.
- In verse 35 he’s telling Jesus that he will never leave him and then just a few short verses later he is denying him.
- In Galatians 2 Peter is wanting to reach out to the Gentiles but finds himself being hypocritical when men from James come to visit.
Can you relate?
It seems like he takes three steps forward and two steps back.
And then you have the apostle Paul, the greatest missionary in the New Testament having a discussion with himself.
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do (Roman 7:15).
Paul had a Lot of enemies but even if he didn’t have any he would be the biggest obstacle in doing what God asked him to do.
You can still finish well
But in both examples, the amazing thing is that both ended their lives in the most honorable way they could within their power.
They finished well and so can you and so can I.
The fact that you can acknowledge that you are your own worst enemy is a sign that you are fighting.
And that is a fight that you can win with the power of the Holy Spirit.